purplerose923

new Livejournal.

So since a lot of changes are coming up, I've decided I should change a few things. 
I'm deleting my myspace. I don't use it anyway.
I'm changing my screen name soon.
I'm getting a new livejournal since this is sort of a "high school" livejournal. I want a new one anyway. 
Who knows if I'll use it?

It doesn't feel quite real. 
The other night we drove around carelessly, not caring what anyone thought. Laughing and screaming and making no sense.
Cheering on a guy trying to win a turtle for his daughter and having everyone look at us.
Yelling about home depot, lowes, and stop and shop very supportively.
It was like the last "immature" night. 
I can't believe we only have 6 days until Nicole&Katie move out.
I can't believe there's only 11 days until Pam moves out.
I can't believe there's only 13 days until I move out.
Things are going to change, obviously. 
But we'll always be friends.

So it's becoming real.
I went to URI the other day...and ordered my computer and books...and i went to heathman and i went inside because some guy let me in...and i found my dorm. the door was open so i went in. its tiny. obviously. butttt thats okay.

its hitting me how much i'm going to miss seeing ruckus in school everyday.

in any event...im seeing harry potter for the 3rd time today with my grandma and aunt...and katie and billy lol.
and i think im going mini golfing with katie and heather tonight.
:)

so...
about a month until i move in.
crazy.

So yesterday I got home from a 3 day trip to NH with nicole. We had fun despite the fact that nicole slipped on a rock 2 miles into the woods and hit her head and bled everywhere... and then proceeded to have a severe panic attack...and bled on me. and then we had to walk 2 miles back...without any type of first aid...until we saw 3 boys with backpacks who were rather attractive who had gauze. then i proceeded to be nurse like and i cleaned the blood off of her....and bandaged her...and then drove her 30 minutes to the hospital where we had to wait in the ER for like... 45 minutes...until they gave her 9 stitches.
but despite that, which occurred one hour into our trip, we had a lot of fun and nicole is just fine. it doesnt look bad, either.
and i dont panic in situations like that, apparently. i stayed calm.
which was good.
yay.
but yea, we also took a train ride,shopped in north conway, went mini golfing, went to weirs beach, went to boston, and had a lot of fun. 
yep.

in any event.
my other roommate found me online. so this is exciting.
woot!
ummmmmm
yes.
idk
im out

So i got my roommate info today.
one of them is from texas and one of them is from CT. this is pretty exciting.
the one from texas has a facebook. her name is allison. the one from CT doesnt have a facebook or myspace...her names katherine.
hmmmm...we'll see how this all goes:)

well i figured out that im in heathmen. which is good because its supposedly one of the nicest dorms. :) 
idk my roommates yet, but i did find a few people on my floor so thats cool.
but anyway...
im excited.

tonight was awesome.
i love summer so much.

Today was better than yesterday.
Tonight I'm seeing nicole and possibly sarah...and this makes me happy.
I love my friends. I really do. I know sometimes it doesnt seem like it, but I do.
I mean..
Sarah- shes been my friend since 4th grade...we started getting closer in 9th and 10th grade...and shes one of my best friends. even though we fight sometimes, i always know ill have a best friend. we have a lot of fun together.
Nicole- My other best friend. I started getting closer to her this year, especially...and im glad i did. i feel like we have a sort of understanding now. I know I can count on her and we always have a good time.
Lindsay- I feel like ive gotten closer to lindsay recently, as well. I've always loved her but recently i feel like we've gotten closer on a deeper level than we used to be. I hope we can even more so... shes also my best friend.
Katie- What can I say about Katie lol. we have a good relationship and we always have fun. we've gotten pretty close since 10th grade and she puts me in a good mood. we have fun and i connect with her on a different level than others....lol(we'renotgay lol ohhh 11th grade)...she is my best friend as well.
Pam- another best friend..I also feel closer to pam lately, though we havent talked much in a while. I was pleasantly surprised by how understanding and open minded she can be. Shes very good to talk to. I wish I could see her more but shes started classes...but hopefully that wont distance us.

*sigh*
idk..
im bringing my grandma to the bookstore because i love her so much. shes so cute...and i havent spent time with her this week.. 
and then im picking up nicole and sarah (hopefully)
and idk what we're gonna do yet but itll probably be fun. it usually is.

I feel very alone in what I'm feeling right now. I don't think anyone could get it...
i also feel distant...and...different.

I really hate people who are close-minded arrogant fucks who do nothing but make fun of others, think bad thoughts about others just because theyre different, or hate just because they've been raised by a fucked up society that fails to set the right standards for any human being.
i hate people who think theyre better just because they think theyre taller, prettier, smarter, skinnier, more stable, less insane, better at dealing, less depressed, 
i hate society and its stupid built-in social rules. if you dont fit the fucking mold might as well kill yourself.
because god forbid someone is a little different. shut up. you have no fucking right to make fun of someone because he talks like a girl or because he wishes he was one, or because she slept with her cousin or because someones depressed or suicidal, or because what you say is right and anything you dont believe in is automatically wrong. 
who the hell said "boys should like football and girls should like dresses"
why cant a boy wear a dress and a girl partake in football without being ridiculed.

shut the fuck up.

ayo so my grad party was off the heezey yo. 
lots of good pictures:)
and i ended up getting a lot more money than i thought i would which is cool, yo.
yep.
it was fun.
and im finally starting to like summer.

so 4th of july sucked basically. it rained. no fireworks. but yesterdays fireworks were nice.
and yea.
i hate it when people try to act like theyre good writers and theyre smart and they know words that others dont. its really silly.
tomorrow i might have the interview.

So i filled an application out at the daycare today and carolyn said she talked to the girl after and said i likely am going to get hired by them...on call type of thing but idc. i just need to do something.
tonight sarahs coming over and we're gonna like...watch fireworks and whatknot.
i feel like smores and summer.

I am going to write a book.

SUMMER<3

so i feel the need to keep myself completely distracted every moment of the day.
i keep going to the bookstore to read because no one is ready or awake or willing to do anything before like 2 for some reason.
and reading helps.
idk.
idk.

So I'm not going to write a 5 page essay on how much I've changed and how much high school has influenced me.
Graduation was the other night..
and well, its officially over. 
There's nothing more bittersweet...
But instead of getting sentimental....

graduation is tomorrow.
finally.

so i went to pride with nicole. we saw carolyn and kathy there. and nicoles friend becca. it was a lot of fun, for the most part. the parade was pretty awesome and there were tons of hott gay guys. we got beads and walked in the parade and pretty much everyone thought we were together, but thats okay.
i finally get to sleep in a little tomorrow.
fantabulous.

got out of detention early today because dr.j's cool like that. got my cap and gown. woot.